Flashing Like a Curser on a Blank Page, Not Like a Drunk Woman at a Drag Show.

Staring at the blank screen with the cursor blinking is a strange metaphor for my life right now.  I know that there are things I want to write, just as I know there are things I want to do.  I just don't know for sure what or how.

The last few weeks have been filled with many strange occurrences.  See some, but not all, details in next post. But know these things are pushing me further from wanting to live a normal life.  And maybe I've always known that a normal life isn't for me.  Maybe a temporary normal as a means to an end, maybe.

My life is mostly a blank screen right now.  The only certain things I am responsible for are my kitties and my iphone.  haha  But really the kitties are my only concern about doing anything drastic, like selling what's left and heading south or west to a cheap country to teach English.  I guess having an open for interpretation life is pretty exciting, and maybe I haven't really thought about it that way before.  I'm not as tired to the trappings of this life as some (this life = cars, houses, clothes, things, jobs, status etc.) but there are definitely times when I feel down about my current status.  Embarrassed that the wine I bring to dinner is a $4.40 bottle of Rex Goliath 2001 "47 Pound Rooster".  Which in my opinion gets the job done and has an amazing label.  But according to some it's only good for sangria. If that. But thankful that I have friends who love me and $4.40 for that bottle. 

So as usually life really is about what you make of it.  About the choices and how you react to those choices.  And it's so helpful to think of it as a 'choose your own adventure'.  Even the sad, crazy, and terrible things that life can hand us, help us grow and help us appreciate the good times.  Realizing that it all becomes this great story at the end helps too.  I mean really, would I want to sit in a nursing home some day and not have any funny terrible stories to tell?  I doubt it.  My friends would be bored.  :)  I don't plan on being bored or boring even in the nursing home.  

And in the words of William and many others before taking that amazing first drink of beer on an equally amazing hot Costa Rican day "Salud, Amor y Dinero!"