GCW after an evening wade

After spending 8 days in the woods camping(girls camping weekend aka GCW), floating in the sun and drinking beer I thought I'd have some piece of mind.  Some direction.  Anything.  But instead I feel more confused than ever. 

I did drive to town on Thursday for more beer and ice and to call Coco on his 28th birthday.  He was so happy to hear from me and we had a very nice conversation.  Which probably added to some of my confusion.  It also didn't help that on Sunday when I returned I had a facebook message from him asking me not to call for a few days as his baby's mama and baby were visiting.  Well, here's the thing, I actually am not 100% sure of what his message said.  I can read some and thought I knew what it meant, but when i put it in to the two online translators I use it got more confusing. But what ever it said isn't sitting right with me.

I have purposely left out the details of my money woes, as this is not what this blog was about.  But at some point the life-searching, struggles, living and loving come to a point where money plays a factor.  Like it or not.  I have some very major decisions to make about my future. All aspects. And in times of great stress my decision making skills go out the window.  All the thoughts jump around like a meth-ed out man with 1000 channels on cable with a remote control in hand.  It's times like these when I believe I am a Gemini.  Because I can usually narrow things down to two decisions and then have equal weight to both.  or at least that's what it seems like.

Anyway, I don't know if this blog serves me any longer. Or if I'll write here again.  I'm back in the city and in my "real" life.  But oh how I miss being warm most of the day and night, and the animal noises, and not understanding everything that's happening around me.  And many other things.  Barking dogs and children are so much less annoying in other countries.

Here's my real blog if anyone cares.  It's not required reading.  :)  itsalmostmonday